Decisions

I was diagnosed with thyroid cancer on July 20th last year, and had thyroidectomy on October 15th. The surgeon removed my entire thyroid. I had my thyroid with papillary carcinoma measuring 1.3cm in the right side of my thyroid and a 2.5mm in the left side.
Now, I am supposed to have RAI 131 treatment (radiation) in a few weeks, but I am not sure about it yet and I really need to take a decision. What to do?

If I have the RAI 131, it will be 50mci. It can prevent the cancer for coming back on a future and it will allow the doctors to follow up and make sure there is nothing left. I started the low iodine diet that is required and it's not that bad; I found a "Low-iodine cookbook" which seems to help a little bit more. If I have this treatment, I will need to be alone, completely alone for two days, and not close to children for about five days, among other things. The scary part of it is that it can increase the risk for leukemia, breast and ovarian cancer and miscarriages. I Told you it was the scary part of it!

If I decide not to do it, the cancer can come back but it won't be easier to find as if I got the treatment now.

Either way I go, I need faith, the faith the LORD gives me because this is a hard decision to make. Some days I feel that I should do it and be done with it, but some other times I feel that I shouldn't. If I do the treatment, I need to believe that God is going to protect me for future side effects, and if I don't I need to believe that the cancer isn't coming back. One way or another I need God to be with me.

Craig and I talked to the doctor, and I have to say that he wasn't really helpful. His response was that this is not an easy decision to make and that he doesn't know what he'll do. Don't you love that? -Hey, doctor, what do you think is the best thing to do here? -Well, to be honest, I am not sure what way you should go, the risk and the benefit are like 50-50. Really?

So, if you read this, I am asking you to please pray for me. I need wisdom and peace. I believe that whatever comes from God, comes with peace and I can't say that I have it (100%), even though I already started the diet.

I wish I could take a quick look to my future with both of the ways to go here. Would that be great? It will be helpful because in that way I'll know for sure what to do. But I can't do so; I have to take a decision and trust that it's the best and that God is going to help me with, that He'll give me His wisdom and that it will make it clear for me.

"Faith is being sure of what we hope for and certain of what we do not see"
-Hebrews 11:1