It was 2003 and someone knocked at my room's door; when I opened, I saw a young man who was asking me for some French lessons. (I used to teach French at the University, I got my degree in French and English as a second languages) He looked nice but kind of strange; I remember after he asked me for the lessons, his next questions was; "How much will you charge" I looked at him and told him that the price will be depending on the classes, and that's how William came into my path. We started the classes, he was pretty good, really decent, and with only one little detail: he didn't believe in God, but it didn't mean I couldn't talk to him. I personally think, that if he had known that I was christian, he would never asked me for help, he would never talked to me, but he found out that one by himself later on.
We became really good friends and the question that started our talks and discussions about God was: why did you always listening to that music? (christian music)- he asked. I really don't remember my answer, but I know that every time he used to go to my house for classes, that was the music I was listening to. As time went by we became close friends. His "friends" didn't like me a lot; after all I was this new woman who was spending more time with William, as some of they thought. William friends called me with so different names, no of them was nice, but I am glad I knew just some of them and I don't want to know the rest...:)
William is one of the most honest men I met at the university; he is the kind of person who will tell you what he thinks and feels right away and I like that; of course, he told me his reasons for not believing in God, and the more I got to know him, the more I understood his reasons but never share them; he started eating at the house I was living and that made our friendship to grow. He went to Bible study group only once, because he kept on saying that God wasn't true, according to him, God was just my imaginary friend and when we talked, his last sentence was: "God is just your imaginary friend"
When vacation time arrived, I was getting ready to go home and he came one afternoon and gave me a CD; he didn't say what kind of music it was, but he asked me to play it and when I did, it was christian music..." I know you like that and I wanted to give you something you like" he said.
I was SO happy; for the first time he was doing something out of his "beliefs", just because according to Him I liked it. Maybe he did it just for that reason, but he had listened the music before giving it to me; something was on his head, something was getting on his heart, I thought. I am not sure if I said something to him that day, but then I started confronting him with the fact that he did believe in God, but didn't want to accepted. Of course I was wrong again- he said, "it's your imaginary friend not mine". Even thought he used to say all of that, I always prayed that someday he will tell me that I wasn't talking to an imaginary friend and God was real.
Time went by; he started dating and we were a little far away from each other at that point; then I came to the States and of course our communication was mails, once in a while and msn. Last year I went back home (Colombia) and I will never forget a walk William and I took. As we walked close to my home, he said he needed to tell me something; "You know, I just wanted you to know, that I am sure that your imaginary friends is real"... what a great joy I felt in my heart to hear that from him; it was after five years and I was hoping too long for that moment. God is awesome!!! I went back home and that was a great "welcome back girl and keep on moving forward"
I am still praying for a dearest friend of mine, who told me the same that William used to say, and the difference is that she asked me not to say or e-mail her anything that has to do with God, but I know she will believe.
If you feel like it's being so long praying for someone, do not stop, you don't know when the Lord is going to touch a heart through your life, keep on standing for Jesus. You will be surprised with the good news, just as much as I was.
William and I still talk, he is working as a tacher now, and I hope the Lord will give us chance to have luch someday soon!
Friday, July 31, 2009
Storms
My husband and I were celebrating his birthday today; it's a HUGE blessing for us, because after being together for almost two years, this is the very first time we are able to spend his birthday being close to each other.
I was cleaning the kitchen after getting a phone call from him; he didn't sound happy by phone and I knew right there that something was wrong. He had left home after lunch to go to a doctor's appointment and there was not exactly good news to hear. Just two weeks ago we found out I have thyroid cancer and today we were told he needs a surgery plus a new test just to make sure his pancreas is working ok. Wow!!! It looks too much for us right now, we haven't even finish with one and got the other one, and the next, and on and on. The only thing we are sure about, is that we are not alone.
While I was cleaning the kitchen I started to pray, I'm the kind of person who talk to God anywhere; I love having conversations with Him, and I am sure He hears me. It was raining a little bit and I was just telling Him that I feel that Craig and I are going through a big storm; "you know Lord- I said- it's one of those storms with thunders and lots of water, I hope not to get the tornado yet" and then I smiled, I feel God was smiling with me, I know He did, and last thing I remember was: "The Lord is your refuge", what a great comfort.
When Craig got home I asked him if we could go for dinner to finish the celebration of his day and I know he didn't feel like celebrating after getting the news from the doctor, but as he said; "NOTHING or NO ONE can take our joy and peace away", so we went. We got out of the house and it was raining, we were talking about where to go and we got in the middle of a storm (literally); as I was looking, it was getting worst and worst, but it went again on my mind the little talking time I had had at the kitchen with God and His words. We made it to cheesecake factory, which by the way is Craig's favorite restaurant. We went inside, ordered, had a good time, tried not to talk about the surgeries (mine and his) and by the time we got out of there it wasn't raining anymore. The sky was blue, it was so clear when we came back home and after all we had a good time.
The lesson of the day: Yes, it may rain but is not going to rain forever, it has to stop at sometime. Sure God is our refuge and now He is with us; just the same way we went to cheesecake factory today, through the storm, we will go to the place the Lord has for us, and by the time we get there and walk to look around us, the sky will be blue, it will be clear and no more rain. I am still praying not to get a tornado, but even if we get it, the Almithy one of Israel is our refuge.
As I am writing this blog, I can see in the scripture some verses that confirm what I hear fomr my Saviour today.
"I love you, O LORD, my strength. The LORD is my rock, my fortress and my deliverer; my God is my rock, in whom I take refuge. He is my shield and the horn of my salvation, my stronghold. I call to the LORD, who is worthy of praise, and I am saved from my enemies. The cords of death entangled me; the torrents of destruction overwhelmed me. The cords of the grave coiled around me; the snares of death confronted me. In my distress I called to the LORD; I cried to my God for help. From his temple he heard my voice; my cry came before him, into his ears. He reached down from on high and took hold of me; he drew me out of deep waters." . (Psalm 18:1-6, 16)
"The LORD is a refuge for the oppressed, a stronghold in times of trouble. Those who know your name will trust in you, for you, LORD, have never forsaken those who seek you." (Psalm 9:9-10)
I was cleaning the kitchen after getting a phone call from him; he didn't sound happy by phone and I knew right there that something was wrong. He had left home after lunch to go to a doctor's appointment and there was not exactly good news to hear. Just two weeks ago we found out I have thyroid cancer and today we were told he needs a surgery plus a new test just to make sure his pancreas is working ok. Wow!!! It looks too much for us right now, we haven't even finish with one and got the other one, and the next, and on and on. The only thing we are sure about, is that we are not alone.
While I was cleaning the kitchen I started to pray, I'm the kind of person who talk to God anywhere; I love having conversations with Him, and I am sure He hears me. It was raining a little bit and I was just telling Him that I feel that Craig and I are going through a big storm; "you know Lord- I said- it's one of those storms with thunders and lots of water, I hope not to get the tornado yet" and then I smiled, I feel God was smiling with me, I know He did, and last thing I remember was: "The Lord is your refuge", what a great comfort.
When Craig got home I asked him if we could go for dinner to finish the celebration of his day and I know he didn't feel like celebrating after getting the news from the doctor, but as he said; "NOTHING or NO ONE can take our joy and peace away", so we went. We got out of the house and it was raining, we were talking about where to go and we got in the middle of a storm (literally); as I was looking, it was getting worst and worst, but it went again on my mind the little talking time I had had at the kitchen with God and His words. We made it to cheesecake factory, which by the way is Craig's favorite restaurant. We went inside, ordered, had a good time, tried not to talk about the surgeries (mine and his) and by the time we got out of there it wasn't raining anymore. The sky was blue, it was so clear when we came back home and after all we had a good time.
The lesson of the day: Yes, it may rain but is not going to rain forever, it has to stop at sometime. Sure God is our refuge and now He is with us; just the same way we went to cheesecake factory today, through the storm, we will go to the place the Lord has for us, and by the time we get there and walk to look around us, the sky will be blue, it will be clear and no more rain. I am still praying not to get a tornado, but even if we get it, the Almithy one of Israel is our refuge.
As I am writing this blog, I can see in the scripture some verses that confirm what I hear fomr my Saviour today.
"I love you, O LORD, my strength. The LORD is my rock, my fortress and my deliverer; my God is my rock, in whom I take refuge. He is my shield and the horn of my salvation, my stronghold. I call to the LORD, who is worthy of praise, and I am saved from my enemies. The cords of death entangled me; the torrents of destruction overwhelmed me. The cords of the grave coiled around me; the snares of death confronted me. In my distress I called to the LORD; I cried to my God for help. From his temple he heard my voice; my cry came before him, into his ears. He reached down from on high and took hold of me; he drew me out of deep waters." . (Psalm 18:1-6, 16)
"The LORD is a refuge for the oppressed, a stronghold in times of trouble. Those who know your name will trust in you, for you, LORD, have never forsaken those who seek you." (Psalm 9:9-10)
Tuesday, July 28, 2009
Fighting cancer...something new
On July 20th, while people in my country (Colombia) were celebrating the Independence Day, my husband and I got the call that changed our lives in a way we never expected, not even thought about.
We woke up as usually; I remember Craig got in the shower, while I was still at bed; every morning when he is getting dress I come dawn to the kitchen to prepare breakfast, (except Saturdays because Craig makes breakfasts and also brings me coffee in bed, isn't him sweet?) During the weeks, when he is ready, he comes, sits at the table with me and we bless our day and food before eating. That morning was not the exception…the only difference was that while we were eating I was telling him that I was not going out because I wanted to wait for the doctor's call with the results of my test and his cell phone rang at that moment; a call we were waiting from the doctor’s office but of course with news we didn’t want to hear.
A week before that day, I went to the hospital for an ultrasound guided FNA of my thyroid , in other words, a test where they put a needle through my neck and took out of a small nodule some sample to get test for cancer; the first time I heard that word it scared me so much and that was just the beginning of a journey we never thought to go through.
It was 9:15 in the morning of a wonderful day, and we were happy and blessed; just the day before we had been at a Church that we felt it was home for us; people made us feel more than welcome and it was not by chance; that Sunday we both felt God’s presence and the whole service was just music and testimonies. We felt that was the place the LORD had set for us to go and worship while living here. All of our peace and joy changed after that morning call, when we heard from the doctor’s office that the test came back positive; they found abnormal cells on my thyroid, I have cancer! I was shocked! Unbelievable, for a second I thought it was SO weird, but later that day I found myself crying on God’s presence trying to find answers to my questions, trying to understand why this was happening to us.
Every thing was going so great and after we got married, it looked like all the bad things starting to happen and come to our lives.
A month after we got married my dearest uncle Jesus passed away and I just thought how ironic was that he helped me SO much, paying my university and supporting me while being here and for being here I couldn’t go to his funeral for not having a green-card yet. Then Craig went for surgery, thank God now he is doing SO much better, and now the news about my thyroid cancer. Why? We don’t know, but we are sure that God is in control. And this is why we believe that going to that church wasn't by chance. One of the testimonies we heard was from a student of Valley Forge Christian college who was sharing the story of her mom who had depressions problems and how they all suffer through all of this time. One day, her mom was at church questioning God how come He wasn't healing and helping her out and all that the Lord asked her was to thank Him; she was surprised and said to God, that how come He wanted her to thank Him, but He kept on saying, "just thank me for everything I have done" and so she did; she started thanking God even thought she didn't feel like, but she did. And after that day, she never had any depression problems at all. Out of the stories, that one kept on my mind the whole Monday long, while I was trying to process that I have cancer, and I told Craig about it. Since that day, we've been trying to thank God for everything, we believe in the God of impossibles, the God who does miracles, the one that has given us So many blessings and the recent one for me, my wonderful husband and parents in law. As that woman said isn't easy, but we are trying.
What is a surprised for you,it is not for God, when you are not ready, He is!!! I keep on telling myself that out of all of this we are going to see the Lord's blessings upon our lives. Don't ask me how, because I have no clue, but all things work for good to those who are called by Him (Romans 8:28) At this moment of my life, I am sure the Lord guided us to that church because He knew exactly what was coming, and if it wasn't because we got strength out of that service, maybe, just maybe our reaction could be different. I am sure this is going to be useful to glorify His name again. "The LORD is my strength and my shield; my heart trusts in him, and I am helped. My heart leaps for joy and I will give thanks to him in song" (Psalm 28:7)
During that Monday, Craig and I did only two things, besides eating and sleeping; we cried and prayed! We cried because it doesn’t look easy for us! We never thought about going through all of this after our wedding, we saw things a little different but here we are, fighting for something we never thought we will!
Figthing cancer may not be easy, but it's SO much better with God's help!!!
We woke up as usually; I remember Craig got in the shower, while I was still at bed; every morning when he is getting dress I come dawn to the kitchen to prepare breakfast, (except Saturdays because Craig makes breakfasts and also brings me coffee in bed, isn't him sweet?) During the weeks, when he is ready, he comes, sits at the table with me and we bless our day and food before eating. That morning was not the exception…the only difference was that while we were eating I was telling him that I was not going out because I wanted to wait for the doctor's call with the results of my test and his cell phone rang at that moment; a call we were waiting from the doctor’s office but of course with news we didn’t want to hear.
A week before that day, I went to the hospital for an ultrasound guided FNA of my thyroid , in other words, a test where they put a needle through my neck and took out of a small nodule some sample to get test for cancer; the first time I heard that word it scared me so much and that was just the beginning of a journey we never thought to go through.
It was 9:15 in the morning of a wonderful day, and we were happy and blessed; just the day before we had been at a Church that we felt it was home for us; people made us feel more than welcome and it was not by chance; that Sunday we both felt God’s presence and the whole service was just music and testimonies. We felt that was the place the LORD had set for us to go and worship while living here. All of our peace and joy changed after that morning call, when we heard from the doctor’s office that the test came back positive; they found abnormal cells on my thyroid, I have cancer! I was shocked! Unbelievable, for a second I thought it was SO weird, but later that day I found myself crying on God’s presence trying to find answers to my questions, trying to understand why this was happening to us.
Every thing was going so great and after we got married, it looked like all the bad things starting to happen and come to our lives.
A month after we got married my dearest uncle Jesus passed away and I just thought how ironic was that he helped me SO much, paying my university and supporting me while being here and for being here I couldn’t go to his funeral for not having a green-card yet. Then Craig went for surgery, thank God now he is doing SO much better, and now the news about my thyroid cancer. Why? We don’t know, but we are sure that God is in control. And this is why we believe that going to that church wasn't by chance. One of the testimonies we heard was from a student of Valley Forge Christian college who was sharing the story of her mom who had depressions problems and how they all suffer through all of this time. One day, her mom was at church questioning God how come He wasn't healing and helping her out and all that the Lord asked her was to thank Him; she was surprised and said to God, that how come He wanted her to thank Him, but He kept on saying, "just thank me for everything I have done" and so she did; she started thanking God even thought she didn't feel like, but she did. And after that day, she never had any depression problems at all. Out of the stories, that one kept on my mind the whole Monday long, while I was trying to process that I have cancer, and I told Craig about it. Since that day, we've been trying to thank God for everything, we believe in the God of impossibles, the God who does miracles, the one that has given us So many blessings and the recent one for me, my wonderful husband and parents in law. As that woman said isn't easy, but we are trying.
What is a surprised for you,it is not for God, when you are not ready, He is!!! I keep on telling myself that out of all of this we are going to see the Lord's blessings upon our lives. Don't ask me how, because I have no clue, but all things work for good to those who are called by Him (Romans 8:28) At this moment of my life, I am sure the Lord guided us to that church because He knew exactly what was coming, and if it wasn't because we got strength out of that service, maybe, just maybe our reaction could be different. I am sure this is going to be useful to glorify His name again. "The LORD is my strength and my shield; my heart trusts in him, and I am helped. My heart leaps for joy and I will give thanks to him in song" (Psalm 28:7)
During that Monday, Craig and I did only two things, besides eating and sleeping; we cried and prayed! We cried because it doesn’t look easy for us! We never thought about going through all of this after our wedding, we saw things a little different but here we are, fighting for something we never thought we will!
Figthing cancer may not be easy, but it's SO much better with God's help!!!
The same song
You probably think after reading my old entry "Nobody loves you as I do", that I became close to God for the meaning of that song and how powerful was for me to hear it those days, but not really. Yes, the Lord touched me using that song and I still remember that day, but hey, my life wasn't fear at that point; according to me God was too busy taking care of everybody else to focus on my silly problems; I felt like dying alone and you know, the song was really nice but what happen after that night was, that I forgot about Him, about the one who loved me with such a precious and incredible love. I kept my life going the same way, going to church on Sundays, praying, a little too much different of how I do it today, and still thinking that I couldn't come closer to God because of all my sins...oh, silly me!
In 2002, I started my universities studies at Pamplona; it's a city located at the "Norte de Santander" department of Colombia, just eight hours away from my hometown. I started living alone, with no family members. It was fun for a while; new friends, new challenges, new stories, a whole new life. The first year wasn't bad, but the following one brought so many surprised that changed my life 100%. But the beginning of 2003 my heart was broken again and I remembered about that song and how powerful it was that night at high school. I wanted to have it, to listen to it again and again. I couldn't remember the lyrics but I knew the singer used to play the guitar, and between his songs, he would say something else about God's love and mercy. That was all I had plus a classmate who was a little different from the rest, (Manuel) at list he looks like a nice person. For some of our classes, I knew he was going to a different church, so I figured he would knew about that song. One day before we entered our classroom I asked him if he had heard a song that says something about God's love and the singer used to play the guitar and talk for a while about the Lord; it was good to try with the description I had, don't you think? Well, back at those days I had no clue about all the singers who praise God, so I thought it will be easy. Well, he wasn't sure which one I was talking about, but he did say he will give me a cassette with some songs from this singer he knew and he did. The next day, I think, he gave me the cassette full with songs but no one was the one I wanted, although I loved the music. The singer was Marcos Witt, who is also Pastor, good singer that praise God's name. You can hear one of his songs that started in Spanish and then he sings in English at at http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=NV8U2bCgqTY&feature=related
Then, Manuel ended up giving me like three more cassettes with Marcos Witt music; of course he asked me first if I had listened and liked the first one and I did, so I took the others too. After a few months I got an invitation from Manuel to go to a friendship day party at his church, which was an Assemblies of God church, and after a few days of thinking and talking to family and friends I went. My mom told me not to go, because they are so much different, she said, and she was right. But Lore, my best friend, told me to go, besides I could get to know Manuel better and of course I did.
After that service I went back home so scared...people talked in languages, clapping and praising, raising their hands...wow! I remember myself sitting and asking God to help me get out of there and I would never go back...Silly me, one more time. But I wasn't used to all of that, it was just too much to process at one visit. :) I decided not to go back to the church, but I kept the cassettes, after all I liked the music; I did start going to Bible study groups on Saturdays, and then I moved to an apartment far away from the house where the Bible study was taking place, so I found a perfect excuse for not to go anymore. One more time I run from God, but He was there working.
You probably ask how come God was working there; well, remember the song? I heard it for the first time when I was in high school, like four or five years later I found myself looking for the same song again and I just heard it yesterday; the good thing now is that I know who the singer is, and what's the title, so it will be easy to find this time. But if it wasn't for that song, I would never have talked to this guy, if he hadn't given me those cassettes I would never have listened to christian worship music, and of course I would have never gone to an Assemblies of God church....and of course nothing happen just by chance. I do believe the Lord place that song for an specific purpose on my life, I am totally sure He sent Manuel right there at the same class for a reason and when I asked this guy why he invited me to his church for a friends party and not actually one of his friends, he told me: "I was praying, asking God to reveal a person who needed Him and he told me you" That's why I believe God was working, He orchestrates everything!
If you find today running from God, stop doing it and turn to Him; if you know you are called to do something to glorify His name, just do it. And I am not talking about preaching or going to missions, that works too; but maybe the Lord is calling you to do a good job where you're working, maybe He is telling you to be a good husband or wife, to be a good son or good daughter, just don't run away from Him, because it's so much fun to run with Him and not from Him!!!
In 2002, I started my universities studies at Pamplona; it's a city located at the "Norte de Santander" department of Colombia, just eight hours away from my hometown. I started living alone, with no family members. It was fun for a while; new friends, new challenges, new stories, a whole new life. The first year wasn't bad, but the following one brought so many surprised that changed my life 100%. But the beginning of 2003 my heart was broken again and I remembered about that song and how powerful it was that night at high school. I wanted to have it, to listen to it again and again. I couldn't remember the lyrics but I knew the singer used to play the guitar, and between his songs, he would say something else about God's love and mercy. That was all I had plus a classmate who was a little different from the rest, (Manuel) at list he looks like a nice person. For some of our classes, I knew he was going to a different church, so I figured he would knew about that song. One day before we entered our classroom I asked him if he had heard a song that says something about God's love and the singer used to play the guitar and talk for a while about the Lord; it was good to try with the description I had, don't you think? Well, back at those days I had no clue about all the singers who praise God, so I thought it will be easy. Well, he wasn't sure which one I was talking about, but he did say he will give me a cassette with some songs from this singer he knew and he did. The next day, I think, he gave me the cassette full with songs but no one was the one I wanted, although I loved the music. The singer was Marcos Witt, who is also Pastor, good singer that praise God's name. You can hear one of his songs that started in Spanish and then he sings in English at at http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=NV8U2bCgqTY&feature=related
Then, Manuel ended up giving me like three more cassettes with Marcos Witt music; of course he asked me first if I had listened and liked the first one and I did, so I took the others too. After a few months I got an invitation from Manuel to go to a friendship day party at his church, which was an Assemblies of God church, and after a few days of thinking and talking to family and friends I went. My mom told me not to go, because they are so much different, she said, and she was right. But Lore, my best friend, told me to go, besides I could get to know Manuel better and of course I did.
After that service I went back home so scared...people talked in languages, clapping and praising, raising their hands...wow! I remember myself sitting and asking God to help me get out of there and I would never go back...Silly me, one more time. But I wasn't used to all of that, it was just too much to process at one visit. :) I decided not to go back to the church, but I kept the cassettes, after all I liked the music; I did start going to Bible study groups on Saturdays, and then I moved to an apartment far away from the house where the Bible study was taking place, so I found a perfect excuse for not to go anymore. One more time I run from God, but He was there working.
You probably ask how come God was working there; well, remember the song? I heard it for the first time when I was in high school, like four or five years later I found myself looking for the same song again and I just heard it yesterday; the good thing now is that I know who the singer is, and what's the title, so it will be easy to find this time. But if it wasn't for that song, I would never have talked to this guy, if he hadn't given me those cassettes I would never have listened to christian worship music, and of course I would have never gone to an Assemblies of God church....and of course nothing happen just by chance. I do believe the Lord place that song for an specific purpose on my life, I am totally sure He sent Manuel right there at the same class for a reason and when I asked this guy why he invited me to his church for a friends party and not actually one of his friends, he told me: "I was praying, asking God to reveal a person who needed Him and he told me you" That's why I believe God was working, He orchestrates everything!
If you find today running from God, stop doing it and turn to Him; if you know you are called to do something to glorify His name, just do it. And I am not talking about preaching or going to missions, that works too; but maybe the Lord is calling you to do a good job where you're working, maybe He is telling you to be a good husband or wife, to be a good son or good daughter, just don't run away from Him, because it's so much fun to run with Him and not from Him!!!
Monday, July 27, 2009
An old blog to open my eyes
I do believe that the Lord uses different ways to talk to us; as my husband and I walked together through this difficult time (me diagnosed with cancer) God has used His word, His presence, His people, and our own old experiences to remind us that He is in control. Just today when Craig came back from work I got on the computer looking for a recipe to make oatmeal and raisins cookies and when I opened it, I had a tab with myspace account opened, which I haven't use in a while; I opened it yesterday to copy that poem I wrote two years ago for thanksgiving and I found the following blog, which I am still asking myself if I wrote, because if I did, how come I forgot about it? about what I wrote? and why didn't I read it yesterday? I am glad God knew it was there and His perfect time for me to read it was today, maybe because Craig was close to me, I am not sure why I didn't read it yesterday. Now, you probably think it was just by chance but I do believe things happen for a reason, nothing is by chance. It's some how hard to understand I have cancer, but check what I wrote last year.
Date: June 29-2008
Title: Thing we don't understand
Current mood: ;) (a happy smile) and the word Hopeful
There is SO many things we don't understand, especially when we want something and it doesn't go the way we want. For some reason, I still believe that in those moments when seems like God doesn't make sense He does... He always does! Yes, it is not easy to believe that what's happening is the best, but if we start thinking and trusting that the Lord is in control when we don't see any lights, it will be so much easier to understand His purpose. Usually it hurts, our hearts get broken some how, and we probably get frustrated, but there is nothing we can do about some situations. There is always two options (I think), one, we stay with that frustration for the rest of our lives remembering something that could happen and it didn't work out, or, number two, after being frustrated for a while we do realize that no matter what, God is all powerful and He is still in control, He just want the best for His kids and let me remind you that we are His more beautiful and important treasures; He wants us to be happy, He will never do something to harm us, because His only purpose is to bless us, to give us life, the most wonderful and awesome life we can dream with.
Date: June 29-2008
Title: Thing we don't understand
Current mood: ;) (a happy smile) and the word Hopeful
There is SO many things we don't understand, especially when we want something and it doesn't go the way we want. For some reason, I still believe that in those moments when seems like God doesn't make sense He does... He always does! Yes, it is not easy to believe that what's happening is the best, but if we start thinking and trusting that the Lord is in control when we don't see any lights, it will be so much easier to understand His purpose. Usually it hurts, our hearts get broken some how, and we probably get frustrated, but there is nothing we can do about some situations. There is always two options (I think), one, we stay with that frustration for the rest of our lives remembering something that could happen and it didn't work out, or, number two, after being frustrated for a while we do realize that no matter what, God is all powerful and He is still in control, He just want the best for His kids and let me remind you that we are His more beautiful and important treasures; He wants us to be happy, He will never do something to harm us, because His only purpose is to bless us, to give us life, the most wonderful and awesome life we can dream with.
I do believe that He will give us the desire of our hearts, but sometimes we just need to stop, let Him work and not complain about anything. May He bless us and give us understanding for those moments we lose our minds and think it is awful, May His light shine upon our lives and His peace fill our hearts for ever, May He give us rest and remind us that His promises are always a reality to wait for, and May His Holy Spirit guide us the way we need to go, in Jesus' wonderful name...Amen!
"For I know the plans I have for you," declares the LORD, "plans to prosper you and not to harm you, plans to give you hope and a future" (Jeremiah 29:11)
May the LORD helps us to trust Him at all times, and may we never give up with good things we desire for our lives.
After I read it for myself I read it aloud for Craig and asked him those questions I wrote above...did I write this? was that me? I felt like God was using me to talk to me..funny hum?
By the way, the cookies were SO good!
Yummy word from God right there and yummy cookies too!
Nobody loves you as I do
During breakfast this morning, I was asking my husband to spell roller coaster for me and he did; that was the title I was going to use for the new blog I was thinking about, but God changed my mind this afternoon when He showed me a scene of my life that happened like 10 years ago. I was back in high school and from those who don't know, I went to a Catholic school where some of the teachers we had were nuns and I especially remember one; sister Gloria, as we were taught to call her. She was SO sweet, always caring and loving and she invited me to be a member of her leaders group; our mission was to help other students younger than us and draw them some how close to God, teach them what we would learn on our extra classes with her or conferences where she would take us. One of those conferences was in one big salon at the high school building, there were some students inlcuding me that night. I don't remember what the conference was about but I do remember listening to the song "Nobody loves you as I do"; I cryed and felt touched by God back in those days with those words and so, I did today.
During my high school years I didn't feel loved; I had a lot of troubles at home, never felt pretty and my classmates didn't help that much, except like three. My family wasn't reach and I felt like some of the people that went to that school made fun of me, and on top of that, I wasn't nice, not even a little bit, except with those few I liked. When I heard that song I felt that there was some one caring for me, I felt for the very first moment that God loved me!!! You need to remember I was like 15 or 16 years old and by that age when you don't feel love, life started to lose sense.
I know today that God still loves me and it was So precious to hear that song again, while I am walking through a hard time in my life; just as I felt ten years ago, I was feeling a few days ago; I was feeling my friends are too busy or far away, it seemed like everybody forgot about me, but how true it is that there is people out there who care for us even though sometimes we don't hear from them.
I was listening this morning another Spanish song called "I will worship you my Lord Jesus" on youtube and you probably know that when you play a video, there are more links to the right side of your screen for some other songs; after I finished listening and singing (which I love doing at home or church) I read on the right side of my screen what I used as title for this blog; "Nobody loves you as I do". I couldn't believe it was there. I wasn't looking for it, haven't think about it in a while and didn't know who the singer was, but it was there. As I heard this song again, I closed my eyes and started crying on God's presence. I am going to translate as much as possible of it, so you can read today what the Lord wanted me to hear and remember. The song is a message from Jesus and goes like this...
How long I have waited for this moment, how long I have waited for you to be on your knees, how long I have waited for you to talk to me, how long I have waited for you to come to me. I know exactly what you've been through, I know exactly why you have cryed for, I know exactly how much you have suffered because I've been there with you and still am. Becasue nobody loves you as I do, no one loves you as I do, look at the cross, that's the greater proof of my love, nobody loves you as I do. Because nobody loves you as I do, no one loves you as I do, look at the cross, it was for you, because I love you, nobody loves you as I do. I know exactly what you say, even sometimes you don't talk to me, I know exactly what you feel, even though you never share it with me, I have walked by your side, I have always been with you, sometimes I have carried you, I've been your best friend!
How precious is the Love of our Saviour that never fails, how awesome the ways He uses to remind us of how much He loves and cares for us!
Did you know that Psalm 136, only that Psalm tell us 26 times that God's love endures forever? Isn't that amazing?
During my high school years I didn't feel loved; I had a lot of troubles at home, never felt pretty and my classmates didn't help that much, except like three. My family wasn't reach and I felt like some of the people that went to that school made fun of me, and on top of that, I wasn't nice, not even a little bit, except with those few I liked. When I heard that song I felt that there was some one caring for me, I felt for the very first moment that God loved me!!! You need to remember I was like 15 or 16 years old and by that age when you don't feel love, life started to lose sense.
I know today that God still loves me and it was So precious to hear that song again, while I am walking through a hard time in my life; just as I felt ten years ago, I was feeling a few days ago; I was feeling my friends are too busy or far away, it seemed like everybody forgot about me, but how true it is that there is people out there who care for us even though sometimes we don't hear from them.
I was listening this morning another Spanish song called "I will worship you my Lord Jesus" on youtube and you probably know that when you play a video, there are more links to the right side of your screen for some other songs; after I finished listening and singing (which I love doing at home or church) I read on the right side of my screen what I used as title for this blog; "Nobody loves you as I do". I couldn't believe it was there. I wasn't looking for it, haven't think about it in a while and didn't know who the singer was, but it was there. As I heard this song again, I closed my eyes and started crying on God's presence. I am going to translate as much as possible of it, so you can read today what the Lord wanted me to hear and remember. The song is a message from Jesus and goes like this...
How long I have waited for this moment, how long I have waited for you to be on your knees, how long I have waited for you to talk to me, how long I have waited for you to come to me. I know exactly what you've been through, I know exactly why you have cryed for, I know exactly how much you have suffered because I've been there with you and still am. Becasue nobody loves you as I do, no one loves you as I do, look at the cross, that's the greater proof of my love, nobody loves you as I do. Because nobody loves you as I do, no one loves you as I do, look at the cross, it was for you, because I love you, nobody loves you as I do. I know exactly what you say, even sometimes you don't talk to me, I know exactly what you feel, even though you never share it with me, I have walked by your side, I have always been with you, sometimes I have carried you, I've been your best friend!
How precious is the Love of our Saviour that never fails, how awesome the ways He uses to remind us of how much He loves and cares for us!
Did you know that Psalm 136, only that Psalm tell us 26 times that God's love endures forever? Isn't that amazing?
Sunday, July 26, 2009
Give thanks to the LORD for He is good!
"Even though I walk through the valley of the shadow of death, I will fear no evil, for you are with me; your rod and your staff, they comfort me". (Psalm 23:4)
When we trust in God with all our heart we believe what His word says. Romans 8:38 says that all things work for good to those who are called according to His purpose. It says ALL things, doesn't say a few things, only some things, it states that ALL things work for good. How hard is to believe it when we are in storms that look so big, how hard it's to believe it when we pray for something and got what we didn't want to, but how wonderful is our LORD to draw us closer to Him when we can't even feel Him, or see the good of one of our bad days.
My husband and I are going through one of those hard moments in life; we just got married on March and we are being SO blessed even thought I just got diagnosed with thyroid cancer. When we heard I needed to get another ultrasound because the one they did didn't look good I was SO scared. They wanted me to get an ultrasound guided FNA so they could look if the nodule they found was benign or not. Oh it sounded bad to me right there...what exactly are they looking for? Cancer? WHAT? it's not right, no one in my family ever have any type of cancer, it can't be, but it was and it is.
Cancer equals to death, suffering, pain, sorrow, it's just one of those things no one wants EVER! But I have it on my thyroid, and the only reason for which is not as bad as I thought, it is because God is in control, He knew I had it and that was why things happened the way they did. I cried, prayed and wonder, and finally thank God; but I was never alone; my husband cried with me, people who love me prayed with me, and the LORD gave me strength, hope and comfort. It looked as bad as you can't imagine, but the LORD turned into something better.
Just last Wednesday, we went to see my primary doctor and I thought she won't say anything good or new, but I was wrong. She told me I was lucky and as her mom said "things happen for a reason"; she explained that the type of cancer I have is called "Papillary thyroid cancer", the most common cancer and that it was good to find out now. That was the best news I could get, I smiled and looked at her and said: Yes, I am SO blessed!!!
I am still praying for a miracle, maybe it will go away, maybe I will need to get a surgery, but the truth is that rather that telling God how big our problems are, we need to tell our problems how great and awesome our God is!!!
My husband always told me I'll be fine, the LORD let me feel Him with me and the great lesson both my husband and I have learned so far is one of the precious one we can get from God.
Thanks to all of you who are praying, thanks for remaining me about your love and how much you care for me. May the LORD bless you all!
"Praise ye the LORD. O give thanks unto the LORD; for he is good: for his mercy endureth for ever". (Psalm 106:1)
My husband and I are going through one of those hard moments in life; we just got married on March and we are being SO blessed even thought I just got diagnosed with thyroid cancer. When we heard I needed to get another ultrasound because the one they did didn't look good I was SO scared. They wanted me to get an ultrasound guided FNA so they could look if the nodule they found was benign or not. Oh it sounded bad to me right there...what exactly are they looking for? Cancer? WHAT? it's not right, no one in my family ever have any type of cancer, it can't be, but it was and it is.
Cancer equals to death, suffering, pain, sorrow, it's just one of those things no one wants EVER! But I have it on my thyroid, and the only reason for which is not as bad as I thought, it is because God is in control, He knew I had it and that was why things happened the way they did. I cried, prayed and wonder, and finally thank God; but I was never alone; my husband cried with me, people who love me prayed with me, and the LORD gave me strength, hope and comfort. It looked as bad as you can't imagine, but the LORD turned into something better.
Just last Wednesday, we went to see my primary doctor and I thought she won't say anything good or new, but I was wrong. She told me I was lucky and as her mom said "things happen for a reason"; she explained that the type of cancer I have is called "Papillary thyroid cancer", the most common cancer and that it was good to find out now. That was the best news I could get, I smiled and looked at her and said: Yes, I am SO blessed!!!
I am still praying for a miracle, maybe it will go away, maybe I will need to get a surgery, but the truth is that rather that telling God how big our problems are, we need to tell our problems how great and awesome our God is!!!
My husband always told me I'll be fine, the LORD let me feel Him with me and the great lesson both my husband and I have learned so far is one of the precious one we can get from God.
Thanks to all of you who are praying, thanks for remaining me about your love and how much you care for me. May the LORD bless you all!
"Praise ye the LORD. O give thanks unto the LORD; for he is good: for his mercy endureth for ever". (Psalm 106:1)
A thank you poem for God
Thank you
What is thank you?
It's eight letters put together
and two words in many songs,
but talking about Thanksgiving,
What should I have to be thankful for?
Dear God, I know you're awesome.
There have been so many times
when I've been looking to the skies,
or talking to my friends, or laying in my bed
and I had always given you thanks.
But today it is special and I guess that is why
I would like to say "thank you"
for being a part in my life.
Thank you for your mercy and love,
thank you for never letting me go;
for your kindness and your patience
for your "yes", your "not yet" and your "no",
for my family and friends and for always being the same.
For your son who came from Heaven
to show us the only way.
For Jesus' sacrifice
and your Holy Spirit guide;
thank you for what you're doing
and for always making me smile.
Thank you for being so good
and looking into my heart,
for believing that I can do,
what sometimes I think is too hard;
But I know that I can do it
'cause you are by my side,
and it is because of your strength
that I am doing different things.
So, one more time I want to give you
from the bottom of my heart
a thank you Heavenly Father
a lots of thanks for who you are.
What is thank you?
It's eight letters put together
and two words in many songs,
but talking about Thanksgiving,
What should I have to be thankful for?
Dear God, I know you're awesome.
There have been so many times
when I've been looking to the skies,
or talking to my friends, or laying in my bed
and I had always given you thanks.
But today it is special and I guess that is why
I would like to say "thank you"
for being a part in my life.
Thank you for your mercy and love,
thank you for never letting me go;
for your kindness and your patience
for your "yes", your "not yet" and your "no",
for my family and friends and for always being the same.
For your son who came from Heaven
to show us the only way.
For Jesus' sacrifice
and your Holy Spirit guide;
thank you for what you're doing
and for always making me smile.
Thank you for being so good
and looking into my heart,
for believing that I can do,
what sometimes I think is too hard;
But I know that I can do it
'cause you are by my side,
and it is because of your strength
that I am doing different things.
So, one more time I want to give you
from the bottom of my heart
a thank you Heavenly Father
a lots of thanks for who you are.
Written on 11/20/07
Welcome!
Writing is being one of those things I’ve always wanted to do but had never started, ‘til now. I used to write love letters or some poems when I was in high school and at the University: sometimes my friends and classmates used them for their love ones and/or partners, but after I got saved, it was on my heart to write songs, poems and letters to God. It is now that I feel like writing some thoughts, sharing stories and on a future maybe a book.
One of my friends from the University always told me to stop saying that I wanted to write and just do it; so, thank you Lore for never give up on me and trusting I could do this. Thanks to Heather too, for posting and sharing her blog with me; I really don’t know you that much, but after reading what you wrote I just felt in my heart that I could do it, just as Lore said, I needed to stop saying and put it into action.
I also want to thank two important persons in my life, without them this couldn’t be possible…my great LORD and my wonderful husband; my LORD because of all of the moments I had have in my life, His love and mercy and everything He did, does and will do for me, for giving me the ability to learn another language and being able to express using it. (You need to know that I learned English as a second language, please forgive me for the mistakes I can do) To my wonderful husband because he is always walking by my side, encouraging me and he found this blog for me, love you handsome!
Thanks to my family for supporting me the way they do, to all my friends and for each one of your prayers...Muchas gracias!
And I know that this couldn’t be done without all the people that God has sent to my path…to to all of you, thanks! I will probably change your names in some stories, just to keep it as our little secret, in other words, there will be stories where you will identify yourself, but don’t worry, not every one will know who you really are.
Craig and I pray that as you read this blog, the Spirit of the LORD will open your hearts and minds because we believe that He can use all of this stories to let you know about His love and we all can learn more about who He is, and what He does. May His peace be with you and we hope that you can enjoy it!!!
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