Fighting cancer...something new

On July 20th, while people in my country (Colombia) were celebrating the Independence Day, my husband and I got the call that changed our lives in a way we never expected, not even thought about.
We woke up as usually; I remember Craig got in the shower, while I was still at bed; every morning when he is getting dress I come dawn to the kitchen to prepare breakfast, (except Saturdays because Craig makes breakfasts and also brings me coffee in bed, isn't him sweet?) During the weeks, when he is ready, he comes, sits at the table with me and we bless our day and food before eating. That morning was not the exception…the only difference was that while we were eating I was telling him that I was not going out because I wanted to wait for the doctor's call with the results of my test and his cell phone rang at that moment; a call we were waiting from the doctor’s office but of course with news we didn’t want to hear.

A week before that day, I went to the hospital for an ultrasound guided FNA of my thyroid , in other words, a test where they put a needle through my neck and took out of a small nodule some sample to get test for cancer; the first time I heard that word it scared me so much and that was just the beginning of a journey we never thought to go through.

It was 9:15 in the morning of a wonderful day, and we were happy and blessed; just the day before we had been at a Church that we felt it was home for us; people made us feel more than welcome and it was not by chance; that Sunday we both felt God’s presence and the whole service was just music and testimonies. We felt that was the place the LORD had set for us to go and worship while living here. All of our peace and joy changed after that morning call, when we heard from the doctor’s office that the test came back positive; they found abnormal cells on my thyroid, I have cancer! I was shocked! Unbelievable, for a second I thought it was SO weird, but later that day I found myself crying on God’s presence trying to find answers to my questions, trying to understand why this was happening to us.
Every thing was going so great and after we got married, it looked like all the bad things starting to happen and come to our lives.

A month after we got married my dearest uncle Jesus passed away and I just thought how ironic was that he helped me SO much, paying my university and supporting me while being here and for being here I couldn’t go to his funeral for not having a green-card yet. Then Craig went for surgery, thank God now he is doing SO much better, and now the news about my thyroid cancer. Why? We don’t know, but we are sure that God is in control. And this is why we believe that going to that church wasn't by chance. One of the testimonies we heard was from a student of Valley Forge Christian college who was sharing the story of her mom who had depressions problems and how they all suffer through all of this time. One day, her mom was at church questioning God how come He wasn't healing and helping her out and all that the Lord asked her was to thank Him; she was surprised and said to God, that how come He wanted her to thank Him, but He kept on saying, "just thank me for everything I have done" and so she did; she started thanking God even thought she didn't feel like, but she did. And after that day, she never had any depression problems at all. Out of the stories, that one kept on my mind the whole Monday long, while I was trying to process that I have cancer, and I told Craig about it. Since that day, we've been trying to thank God for everything, we believe in the God of impossibles, the God who does miracles, the one that has given us So many blessings and the recent one for me, my wonderful husband and parents in law. As that woman said isn't easy, but we are trying.

What is a surprised for you,it is not for God, when you are not ready, He is!!! I keep on telling myself that out of all of this we are going to see the Lord's blessings upon our lives. Don't ask me how, because I have no clue, but all things work for good to those who are called by Him (Romans 8:28) At this moment of my life, I am sure the Lord guided us to that church because He knew exactly what was coming, and if it wasn't because we got strength out of that service, maybe, just maybe our reaction could be different. I am sure this is going to be useful to glorify His name again. "The LORD is my strength and my shield; my heart trusts in him, and I am helped. My heart leaps for joy and I will give thanks to him in song" (Psalm 28:7)

During that Monday, Craig and I did only two things, besides eating and sleeping; we cried and prayed! We cried because it doesn’t look easy for us! We never thought about going through all of this after our wedding, we saw things a little different but here we are, fighting for something we never thought we will!

Figthing cancer may not be easy, but it's SO much better with God's help!!!