Hospitals...

"Hear my cry, O God; listen to my prayer" (Psalm 61:1-2)

Craig and I have been sick! Wow!!! Being sick wasn't how I pictured our lives together. In the middle of all of this storm we can feel the LORD's presence
"The LORD is my rock, my fortress and my deliverer; my God is my rock, in whom I take refuge. He is my shield and the horn of my salvation, my stronghold" (Psalm 18:2); we know that there is people praying for us, because we can feel it, but today we both are sad, very sad!

I felt that we are taking turns...when we plan doctors appointments we need to make sure that one of us has nothing going on the same day. The following week was supposed to be a complete week at the doctors' offices and now we need to call and canceled. The reason for which we have to do so, is because Craig is at Tommas Jefferson hospital for what was supposed to be a day or two, but we are getting into day number three. While trying to help him, they caused, accidentally, another problem that made him stay over there more time that what we had thought. Again I have to remember Isaiah 55:8 "For my thoughts are not your thoughts,neither are your ways my ways,declares the LORD"- No, they are not!

I was hoping that this storm, that started just after we got married, would come to and end soon. "It's about time"- I thought, and now I am just thinking..."well, maybe it is not"- I don't understand why; my heart is broken, Craig's heart is broken, and today we are both at the same time, very sad. It's not like I can lift him up, it's not like he can lift me up, we are just down! Yet, we may be hard pressed on every side, but not crushed; perplexed, but not in despair;persecuted, but not abandoned; struck down, but not destroyed (2 Corinthians 4:8) Only God himself can lift us and carry us both, because we can't anymore. It's being too much-I kept thinking and I looked at the very beginning when I thought that we couldn't make it and we are still!!! We are here telling everybody, including ourselves, that our redeemer lives! Hallelujah- I know that God is working in our lives, that He is fixing our bodies, so we can fulfill His call. We have walked literally through the valley of the shadow of death, but nothing and no one can ever take our love for each other and the love from and for our LORD away...EVER!

I am still believing that we will glorify the King of Kings, we will glorify His name, we will get through all of this and we will worship at the hospital and come back to all of you with good news from the Almighty one. Oh, don't ask me how, because I don't even see a way, but I know in my heart that we will. My trust is in the one who saw us before we were born, the one who hold our life and future on His hands, the great I AM, the all powerful God!

Like Bartimaeus shouted when he heard that it was Jesus of Nazareth passing by, I am crying out to the Lord tonight...Jesus, Son of David, have mercy on us! And I won't stop because I know that my Lord hears me and He answers my prayers.

"The LORD has heard my cry for mercy; the LORD accepts my prayer" (Psalm 6:9)